Wednesday, June 27, 2012

Be still, please just be

Just be still, please just be
See what God has created
Just be still, please just be

Closing my eyes I see
A torn veil
Bloody Nails
A heart once dead now alive

Tilting my head, I hear
Songs sung by creations near
Music rustled on by wind
An orchestra made to worship

Just be still, please just be
He comes when least expected
Never late, rarely early, always on time 1
Full of surprises and of humor

A twinkle in His eyes
As He presents
His gift

A gift I can't compare or give back
Tear stained cheeks trembling hands
A life given, a life reborn
The gift received in belief

Be still, please just be
Discover Him who loves
Live a graced filled life
Oh, be still, please just be.

Christina Damron
06-24-12

1.quote by Terry Maughon

Tuesday, June 26, 2012

A month and half complete

So I have nearly been here for officially a month. What I have learned I cannot even tell everything, because I simply won't ever know how everything has effected me. But this I know. Camp has made a rebel of me. I have found excitement of "living on my own".  Moreover, just being with people my own age has opened a whole new world to me.
      Someone once told me " Expand your horizon". And so I have followed that advice. I have also just let myself be...
      With me being so tired all the time, that means I am slap happy a LOT. Which means I am usually a lot more fun and crack people up with laughter. Which is cool. But it only happens with about four to five people.
      I work a lot in the evenings in the gift shop which is awesome. I love it so much. The lady who runs it is such a blessing. Working in the outfitter shop gives me relief from my other work.
     Photography is going well. I've had so many difficulties and to be frank there's been once or twice I've wanted to throw the laptops against the wall and break down crying. But I didn't and I haven't broken down crying. I gave it to God and He's been so good to me. I am so blessed. I can not wait to tell my family back home of how insufficient of supplies I had and God provided what I need. This week I have two slideshows back to back literally. One slideshow on Friday and then the next day another. But...I'm not sweating. Not yet. God's given me the songs...just got to purchase them and transfer. One of them is half way finished. I'm so excited, but also feel both confident and inadequate at the same time. An odd combination, but it makes perfect sense to me.

I must fly. There's so much to do. I kid you not, it's taken me two weeks to write this much. But on a good note, I think I've gotten my videos up to par now. Yeah. SO...they'll be coming along soon! They're much faster to put up and make. :)

Friday, June 8, 2012

Technological difficulties

For whatever reason my phone has decided not to download videos. So once I get that cleared up about four vidoes will be posted. ;) Look for me friday!

Wednesday, June 6, 2012

Staying the course

I've promised myself that I'd starting writing more, a promise I've kept. Also a promised that I'd stop writing so much of me. That promised has failed. I can't help but share my joys, my tears, and my learning. It scares me and well encourages me. Frankly though I'd rather share my joys than my tears.

Within two months, I will be a Pellissippi Graduate. I can not say that I'll miss it. But is has been wonderful. But I am so ready to move on. It is very often these days that I want to pack up my bags, load up the car, grab a handful of cash, and explore without any adenda. Perhaps stop in a small old fashion town, and live for a while. Photography every where I go, whatever interests me. When I get tired, leave. Sounds like a fairy tale...sounds like a dream. But it'll be a lonely road at some point.

But I am staying the course...almost. There's a small detour that I *might* take. Other than that, the plans are the same. Within two years...not three I'll be owning my own business. Having two majors, two trades, and two passion all avaible to be used for the glory of God.

Saturday, June 2, 2012

Two weeks and four days

      The kids are coming tomorrow. I am SO nervous. My 17 days of intense training is over...and it WAS intensive. Almost every day I woke at 7:00 and go to bed at 11:30 or midnights. Sometimes I had to awake at 6:00. Every day was filled with training on how to properly tie ropes, understanding the gospel, safely.
     This week alone I had to pass five tests and they were HARD. But I was grateful for them. The first was CPR and First aid. So I am a certified to give anyone first aid here at this breathtaking camp. I mean they went all out in training us. Fake blood 'n everything thing. I felt like a little nurse. lol. The second was the swimming test. Now, picture this wee blonde lass who can't hear squat without her aids acing her swimming test and astonishing her testers. Thanks mom for insistencing I learn to swim at an early age.  The third test I had to pass tying knots correctly. Then the rest was doing taking the S.W.A.T test  and the general test.
        One thing that they were insistent about was understanding and telling the gospel correctly. We spent four hard core crucial days training on understanding the gospel. It was great. There was heavy discussion, people quoting scriptures and then would get quoted back. They back it up with background references. I have never ever been in a friendly scripture debate, where the instructor encourage discussion even if we disagreed with him. I was one of  them (cough). To be honest I did wrestle with some of the things that was said, but my eyes were opened to things that I had been taught that were wrong. I carefully prayed and ex aimed the scriptures for myself of what was said. Someone in the group said they loved my questions and tiny little arguments.  Because I wasn't disrespectful at all, and I was trying to understand, but I wasn't going to just accepted it either without scripture backing it up.  I was on the instructor side, but I couldn't understand for a while what he was getting at. Then it became clear. Here's what they believe:
       The only way you can get to heaven in the BELIEVE that Jesus Christ is the Son of God who died and rose again so that you may have eternal life.
        Grace is heavily and I do mean heavily taught here. I feel like I am back where my Pastor had been teaching for the past two years on this subject. It is so amazing! The focus or the theme this summer? Magnify. Worship essentially.
        Other than telling the Gospel correctly, their second goal is to make sure everyone is as safe as possible. In fact my understanding was if I had not passed the test, I would have been sent home if I didn't pass it the second time. I could have been wrong on that though. They want to make sure their staff and the kids are safe. Which would explain why they are crazy about us drinking water and staying rested as much as possible.
        There is so much more to tell. In fact I have two or three sermons up my sleeves just of everything I had learned with my own personal relationship with God. My poor family will most likely get a "preaching". Lol. They'll love the stories....well most of them.
       By the way...for the very first week I'm going to be a S.W.A.T which is where I tied the ropes, prepare all the activities for my group, and care for the general safely. After that they're working hard to get me back on the Photography route since that is what they "hired" me to do. I'm excited.
       I don't mind filling in other roles for a short time. After all am I not on a mission field? I went to be a photography missionary and I am one. But if there are holes to be filled, sometimes I must step in when I can.
   Here's a scripture that has kept me going even before I left to come here. Joshua 1:9. Ironically, it is the same scripture that my dearest sister wrote on my good-bye note.